Walking: Leading cause of Holes in Your Shoes

So I’ve sent off the forms! Begone thou foul demons! Just kidding. I’ve completed the health check, handed in my funds request, finalized my internship proposal, and sent some supporting documents to Panrimo. I would like to think that the most stressful part of this process is over. Side note: While consulting with the school physician she informed me that Englands not well known for their cuisine. That kind of makes me laugh. Imagine hearing “Oh England? It’s such a beautiful and interesting city you’ll love it! Too bad about the food.” Oh jeez. I guess I’ll be losing weight on this adventure. ūüôā

As we head into finals week, we are rushing, stressing, and killing ourselves trying to meet deadlines. I’ve pulled about 3 all nighters thus far, working off of ‚̧ hours of sleep a day. I really can’t wait until it is over. I just need a week of just doing what I would like to do and avoid or willingly participate in the world. Yes, I am an introvert.

BUNAC! Why u no work? I have yet to receive my certificate of sponsorship which is really important if I want to start my internship on time. Why is it that the simplest tasks seem to have the greatest difficulty when trying to complete them?BLajldnsodnsadsadnaskjasdna

To top it off, because of stress and bad sleeping schedule, i’m sick.

Good things and blessings: It’s almost over!!! It hasn’t snowed in a while. The sun gets up when I do. I have a care package waiting for me. All of my major assignments have been turned in. My mom’s driving up to pick me up so I don’t have to worry about luggage. My roommate’s friends have a storage unit that they are letting us put are stuff in for FREE! I have 1 more year left ( let’s make it count!) My job contract is almost over. I begin a new job next year. The flowers are blooming so beautifully. I still have $9.00 in cafe bucks. I get to henna my hair in a few days!¬†

My feelings of imminent cataclysm is growing. Everyday good or bad feels important and filled with opportunities. These opportunities span the wavelength of deepening friendships or building new ones, finding out an interest I never knew I had, and truly analyzing what I am supposed to do in this world. Being on the precipice of a great change I sense meaning in all interactions. I am hyper aware and unfocused. Someday I want to know what it all means but right now I just want to bask in the process of finding out.

Quote of the day: “On a scale of 1-10 im an 11” “Yeah, on a pH scale! You basic.”- Joe Saleem II

Song I’m stuck on: West coast by Lana Del Rey



I can no longer ignore it or push it aside. The time has come. My pulse races, my heart beats out of my chest, the light is too bright the dark is too loud. As I try to calm myself I search into the recesses of my mind to make a list, a triage of executable tasks, that take order in what i can do now and what must be done right away. Everything is happening at once but I am still expected to go about life as normal, or at least complete what has always been required of me. Friday. The date looms near and i want to shrink away from it. Hide from it. Or at least freeze time so that I have enough time to get everything done. This may seem a little ambiguous. Maybe a lot. The purpose of this blog is to track my experiences studying abroad and the process starts at home. Unfortunately all the forms and required documentation are all due at the same time that all of my classes are playing catch up or unleashing the heaviest of loads. I can barely take it. There is a light at the end of this tunnel though. 3 more weeks. Then this uneasy existence is solidified and I am done with this institution for now.

For my first time abroad I will head of to the cheery and sunny land of london, England.¬†I am excited.¬†¬†Beyond excited. This will be my first time traveling abroad on my own. I am scared, confused, and anxious. But I’m supposed to be happy and care free, right? why does¬†life feel like a part time job I need to quit right now? UGH! This is why I read. Escapism is my art.

Important things:

My interview is done. Although I woke up late and was interviewed 30 minutes late, Dr. H seemed not too addled by it. I stressed out for the entire week thinking that I totally messed up my interview. I mean, who would want an intern that can’t even show up on time for an interview? It was the first time I’d EVER been late for an interview. Promptness is important with first impressions and I totally interviewed without washing my face or anything. It’s a good thing it was a skype interview. Gosh that woman has the patience of a saint.

I. GOT. THE. INTERNSHIP! Wait whaaaaat what? They want me? Why? what trickery unfolded between my internship coordinator and Dr. H? Whatever. I’ll know when I get there. Now the money is due. Oh dear gosh. I guess I’m setting up my gofundme today. Maybe they’ll let me work while I’m there so that I can have some pocket money? Hopefully. sigh

Song choice for today: Ode to sleep – twenty one pilots

Random thought:

Matchmaker: Recite the final admonition.

Mulan: -Blank stare-